Love and Hate.

There is a fine line between the both, and I waiver from loving, to hating at the drop of a hat. There are a few things/people I love unconditionally, I don’t “hate” many people, I just have a severe disliking for asshat, backstabbers, people who fabricate and spew crap and general, all round, social climbing, stuck-up, holier than thou morons (anddddd quite a few males >.>).

This is a rant post, with a fashion twist, so if you don’t like rants, switch off now!

I decided that I really liked this outfit:

I thought I looked all whimsical and romantic, like I was happily in SLove, without a care in the world, running through open fields with cute puppies and kittens by my side…. then I sat there and thought what the HELL are you doing lady?! I’m having one of “those” times in SL right now, I have my friends, I have my inventory, I have my SLHealth, I don’t have an SL man and do I want one? I thought I did! I honestly thought wow, they aren’t *all* bad, sooo I consider letting the old guard down and then I am bought back to SLearth with a great big bump!

One thing I found in SL and RL is that I can now differentiate between the two, they are me in both respects, but I am very happy with my RL and don’t need any interference then tyvm, SL, is a different kettle of fish, I find it VERY hard to trust in SL, mainly because i’ve been jacked over by people that many times, i’ve lost count, I am starting to think*I* must be the bad egg, as I attract so many of them! People just cannot just wait and “go slow” with you, clearly it’s a case of blue balls, so my dear sissles says… or they can’t wait to see you stumble in SL and then totally bitch you out to all and sundry and that’s very disheartening, when you’re a complete softy, who is willing to trust even the most heinous of people, and try and see the good in them, it makes you feel like a great big twonk, and i’m sick of feeling twonky.

So I decided to get all RAWR and wear this outfit:

So back to good old angelic love the world Willis.

Doesn’t she look all dreamy and adoring? This is most likely the former Willis, that was born in ‘04, wide eyed and agog at this new world she’d found, making friends, generally partying and creating havoc with the close friends she’d made almost instantly (except she looked *slightly* more manly >.>).

I fell in love with SL soooo quickly, I loved that I could be me, but better dressed, and make friends from all over the world, and play barbies and OH THE JOY… shopping that cost less than RL (did back in the day, you know!). Of course this ensemble isn’t from ‘04, most of my ‘04 stuff is packed away in the depths of hell. But this is what I imagine I would look like in SL heaven, all light and floaty and showering love and huggles on everyone.

Then I come back down to earth with a bump.

I have the most AWESOME friends in SL that anyone could ask for, but i’m wary of new people, and hell, even wary of some older people I know, that seem to tell me one thing like “oooooh, I want to be with you, I have done forever!” or “oooh i’d never say stuff like that about you =o, you really think I would?” then BAM.. next day they have a new pick with a GF in it and you think WHAT THE HOLY HELL? did I sleep for two weeks? do I suck THAT much? or I get some kinda heads up about stuff being said about me and after being made to feel guilty of even thinking said person would do that and then.. I get stabbity.

Honestly? I take it all with a pinch of salt, whatever will be, will be, I’ve been effed over royally in the past, by friends and SLationships both, doesn’t mean I won’t give them a chance again, it just makes me more aware that i’m likely to get hurt, and that… I do not need. That, dear people, is that makes me crankiest. Thinking that I can trust people and then them turning around and testing my loyalty, patience and most of all abusing my trust, and then I feel like dressing like this. Dark, dingy and just about ready to create mayhem, in the worst way.

I think SL and RL is about give and take, but how are you supposed to feel when sometimes, with some you feel that you just give, give, give and they take, take, take (usually the piss!)? It makes you dislike SL to some extent, but you get up, dust yourself off and mute the bastards til they realise what cockwits they are :D, or you do what I do, turn off the PC, dust off the TV and watch a few good rom-coms, stabbity horrors, or re-reuns of Maury.

This really was just a general rant, bought to you by the good old feeling of love and hate in and around SL, largely due to a bit of man hating going down. But see! Willis has a softer, and a harder side. The latter doesn’t tend to come out a lot, but the softer side sure can whinge for England, and I do genuinely hurt, like everyone else.. I R NOT MACHINE!

Credits:

Love:

Eyes:
Green - By ME!
CS Lashes - Flirt

Hair:
-N- - Nicole - Warm Sand

Skin:
PXL - Linda - Natural Cat Eyes - Brown EB

Outfit:
Last Call - Marrakesh
Anisas - Those Darn Distracting Ears!

Hate:

Eyes:
Canimal - Bloodshot Eyes - Blue
CS Lashes - Flirt

Hair:
Zero Style - Cocoro - Black Cherry

Skin:
Canimal - Essence of Charm - Elements
::FORM:: - Henkei Tattoo 04
EtchD - Packin’

Outfit:
Torridwear - Hot Wired (Skirt)
Eat Me - Bloody Leg Bandage
SiniStyle - Trespasser Beware Boots
Maia - Fishnet Top 2
Anisa - EARS!

Please see my Store ‘N’ Stuff page for SLURLS (found at the top right hand side of my blog, under about me :D, if you have any you’d like me to put up, you can comment :D)

~ by Willis on February 27, 2008.